The Light for my Path

I always dodged the question of the future. What do you want to do? I don't know, I would always say. But as school winded down to an end, I was scared. Scared of a future that was hard to see. Scared that the answer I always gave didn't work anymore. I was scared to go on with my life.

Tonight changed everything.

Praise night was awesome. The message was great, the song selection was great, the experience was great. For some, it was a first encounter with God. For others, it was another experience of his great love. For me, It was a revealing experience. For some reason, I didn't want to mix God with my future. I always put that separately. Church and work. Always present, never together.

Throughout junior high and high school, I felt God pushing me to do ministry work in some way. Thinking of how hard and how long of a road that would take, I always pushed it away and tucked it under the fake dreams and aspirations.

Praise night changed everything. For some reason, I doubted God with my future. I don't know how, I don't know when this started, I don't know why. But now I don't care. Through all the hardships I've been through, there should be nothing that keeps me from doubting God.

Ministry is also a very big possibility for me in the future. Although I ignored it before, I feel the strong calling towards that area, but I will keep praying for it. Biola is also a big calling for me, so who knows? Maybe I just might become P(astor) Cho just like I've been called since seventh grade.

Some things that can't leave my mind:

Isaiah 6:8 "Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, 'Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?' And I said, 'Here am I. Send me!'"

Mark 15:16 "He said to them, 'Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation.'"

Delirious - History Maker

Hillsong - Tell the World

Phil